First, and I guess only, order of business- why are there so many struggles out there? I know the ultimate answer is that "life isn't perfect". But there are A few things I really don't understand. Here's one, maybe I'll write about more later as they weigh on my heart.
INFERTILITY: why? When there are high school girls who get pregnant without even trying. When someone finds out they are pregnant and choose abortion. When it only takes one try for some couples. Why? I
ve not personally struggled with it, but from the outside looking in- it seems like infertility can just beat down a spirit.
When that 1st, 2nd, 3rd.... Round of treatments doesn't work. Why? When it makes one or both partners feel inadequate, why? I'm so grateful that conceiving was not an issue for us, but my heart just breaks for those who don't have an easy road.
When I first found out I was pregnant I felt a small amount of guilt/sadness for those who have been trying much longer than we had. Don't take it the wrong way, I was elated for our news. And it made me extremely thankful for our blessing. It also made me stop and think about my birth mother. I wish she could have experienced the feeling of elation. Now of course I don't know everything about the situation, but I can deduce the fact that finding out she was pregnant was not the best news she had ever received. I am extremely grateful though and proud of her for making the decision that she made. She gave me the greatest gift by allowing me to have the life that I have. She really gave me life twice. She is ~51 now and I hope that she is married, was able to have more children, and has a sense of my well being.
I can't tell you how many times I've wondered about this. Sometimes, I think we just have to accept that there are things we just simply don't understand.
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