Fall Semester, 2008= done

...Well "almost done". I had a final in Advanced Reservoir Engineering on Thursday, Well Completions on Friday and a paper due tomorrow. The teacher told us to keep our papers to less than 20 pages. Well, mine is 12 pages. 12 is less than 20, right? So I should be good to go.
This semester has been interesting. About 5 weeks into the semester and realized that my desire for going back to school had tumbled hard into no-man's land. At that point, however, I was too far into the semester to get any refund amount. Really my only choice was to keep on, keepin on. I cannot express how hard it is to keep doing something, when you don't want it anymore.

About 3 years ago I had decided that I wanted to go back to school, but knew that I couldn't afford wonderfully, overpriced TU. Then, 2 years ago when I started work with my current employer- I decided the time was right to go back to school. My employer has an educational reimbursement plan, and they cover 100% of the cost of tuition and books. The first 2 semesters back at school were great. I felt as though I was learning a wealth of knowledge and suffered only normal stress. By normal stress I mean: midterm and finals stress. The homework assignments weren't too bad and I always seemed fairy prepared for the quizzes.

Then....out of no where, Fall Semester 2008 hit me like I had run into a brick wall. I couldn't figure out why it was so tough this time around. I had spent alot of time in prayer about my initial decision to go back to school and I was wondering why God would let me be so down about school. I really felt in my heart that I was doing what He wanted me to do. This point of confusion led me to spend SOOO much time in prayer and quiet listening.

Here's what I've come up with (God assisting, of course): I need to slow down. Therefore, I am only taking one class next semester. Life goes by too quickly to not spend it doing the things you love. I love spending time with my husband, and I've been neglecting this passion the past few months. I also realize that I CAN DO THIS, but I can't do it at the same pace as before. Grad class are getting tougher. With working full time, I can't expect myself carry 6 hours of school as well. The last thing I've come to realize is that I DON'T HAVE TO BE PERFECT. Even though the kitchen may not always be as clean as I want it, or my performance at work is only 99% and not 105%- I'm still ok! No one else expects better than perfection out of my, so why should I expect it out of myself? Most of all, God does not require perfect from us- certainly I shouldn't set my sights higher than our Creators.

Well, that rounds out my thoughts tonight. I'm sure alot of things are misspelled and my grammar is probably not the best...but sometimes it just feels good to get thoughts from my head onto the blog.